Life-Changing Experience

[Nogarath]

When i was about 16, 17 I had an experience that honestly changed the person I am today. Ive had countless times like this, but I figured this is one to share. (also bare with me, i ate quite a bit of shrooms when this happened)

I heard a voice (I presume is my conciseness) question me about certain
things I've done through out the span of my life, it was giving me the
chance to bare the pain myself that I've caused others but it was
a slow and terrible pain it felt as if all the bones in my body were
tightening and jamming in the most awkward and uncomfortable position
while the life drained from my body (I could feel my skin decaying
and sticking to the bone as if I'd been dead for years) another part
was I was discovering why the muscles in my body are always randomly
jamming and cramping beyond belief. I felt as if my body was literally
unraveling like a sweater starting from my toes going up to my head
ending at the tip of my fingers once that was done I saw frames of
points in my life where I've emotionally and mentally hurt different
members of my family and after being seen they would slowly re-ravel
sections of my body till i was complete(I'd also feel the cramp in
that part I'd always feel randomly till it was done) then as I was
speaking to a mental but visual hallucination of a naked woman
she had flawless white skin, bright blue eyes, long pitch black hair,
bright bright bright red lipstick (a darker, older version of AURA) and asking
me why I do what I do and I tried to break it down with her but she'd
reason at why I didn't need to but the more I let her speak and understood
her and tried to apologize for what I've done to everyone a
strange sound slowly got louder and louder and my room became more peaceful
and serene and my body would feel less painful but if I would fight her
teaching the sound would die down and certain pains would come back and
my room would seem to become a sight out of sin city hearing sirens of
police cars and dark disturbing things. It finally went to the point
where I accepted everything she spoke and apologized for my action and
swore to ensure I'd change for the better. The sound became overwhelming
and my bed seemed to loosen its grip upon me and my body felt so relaxed
and great. But then I heard "You've seen what happens when you stray from
the path that was set before you" and it felt as if my body was free falling
from the peaceful heaven I was in back through the hell I knew feeling all
the pain come back but even worse and my body would rot again but just like
that I was back to the peacefulness. But as it ended all the lights disappeared
and my room starting to be chiseled at bit by bit till the lights and night
disappeared and it showed a non light room with the sun shining in the window....

[Kim_Hyral]

I think you have to create a little book about all this things.
No! I'm not saying that you're lying! Really, i believe on you.
I just trying to say that you very have potential in describe the facts. xD

So I enjoyed your story ^.^

But just tell me... do you can see "ghosts"? o.O
It's not a joke! I believe in ghosts!!

[Kaori]

You need help, it doesnt help to know that there are kids here and you keep condoning this, if this is all that you can talk about I suggest getting your mind on the right track.

[Nogarath]

You need help, it doesnt help to know that there are kids here and you keep condoning this, if this is all that you can talk about I suggest getting your mind on the right track.

I have NEVER lost sight of whats important. I still go to college, I have a stable job, I use these things to my advantage. Life changing spects are viewed differently. Believe me i used to be ignorant and biased in everything I did. I am not condoning anything, just saying that during this period in time, the youth of our planet needs to broaden their horizons, see more of the evil world for what it is. Find the small its of beauty hidden deep within ourselfs and everything around us. And aslso find the manipulation, and selfishness hidden around us that changes our views on things that are right and wrong. Everyone thinks the same, and there is no more individuality anymore. Its things like this that just continuously upsets me. I like posting these things here on a .hack board because we all have one powerful common intrest.

The world is chaning, and we dont even know it. I only know so much of what evil really lies behind everything. Massive lies. Everything we know is fake.

I think you have to create a little book about all this things.
No! I'm not saying that you're lying! Really, i believe on you.
I just trying to say that you very have potential in describe the facts. xD

So I enjoyed your story ^.^

But just tell me... do you can see "ghosts"? o.O
It's not a joke! I believe in ghosts!!

haha im not ignorant nor do i get offended so easily. i know you werent being sarcastic. no you do not see ghosts, but basically depending on what you have experienced throughout your life, every little bit of everything you have ever seen, felt, all of it.. it remais in the darkest parts of your brain. When you break through to those parts (some people meditate, others use psychedelic substances, or other means) then when you tap into that, my story is a result. it will always vary on the person.

[Kim_Hyral]

So that's it han!
Heh, Fine!!
Maybe I have much to learn with you about this things! =)

Ghost Hunters! Leeets do it!!
Well... Yes, that was a real joke! (I afraid of Ghosts remember?)

So don't count on me! =/

[Shiori]

Sounds..interesting. I wont say it was very realistic and those shrooms probably helped. lol. Either way must have felt real to you and seemed reall so I wont say it was fake, I believe this happend to you. It was very interesting to hear about your vision though.

So that's it han!
Heh, Fine!!
Maybe I have much to learn with you about this things! =)

Ghost Hunters! Leeets do it!!
Well... Yes, that was a real joke! (I afraid of Ghosts remember?)

So don't count on me! =/

Lol Kim ghosts arn't scary. There good as long as there not a poltergeist or a demon, that is mistaken for a ghost. Ghosts are just sprits that are attached to this world still for one reason or another. lol. Don't worry I shall protect you from the ghosts! We can all go up to a nice desserted old haunted mansion where no one will interupt us and Nogarath can try to chanelle into another vision and I can protect you from all the ghosties. Its a good deal if you ask me. I get to see the ghosts and you get to see how Nogarath gets to the point of seeing his visions. And Nogarath gets to share first hand with us what he saw this time! Its a win ,win. ;P

[Kim_Hyral]

Y-Yeah... M-Ma-Maybe...
W-What? You will protect me? But!!!!
I'm a boy, and I don't want everyone see a girl protecting me!
It's embarrasing!!

=============EDIT!!!============

I changed my mind!

Shiori... Yes!! Protect me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BESIDES! I'll never walk with this guy Nogarath!
He's probably can see ghosts all the time and what do about his visions??

[AZURE-KITE]

Y-Yeah... M-Ma-Maybe...
W-What? You will protect me? But!!!!
I'm a boy, and I don't want everyone see a girl protecting me!
It's embarrasing!!

=============EDIT!!!============

I changed my mind!

Shiori... Yes!! Protect me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BESIDES! I'll never walk with this guy Nogarath!
He's probably can see ghosts all the time and what do about his visions??

Now this makes a chain..... I protect her from light, and asassins and she protects you from Ghosts and bad auras, but i doubt she will accept... However....

BESIDES! I'll never walk with this guy Nogarath!
He's probably can see ghosts all the time and what do about his visions??

You must talk to him to keep going in your Journey my Young guest..... You must face the challenges with your *Ahem* powers.... ((Does that sounds familiar to sumone?))

[Shiori]

Y-Yeah... M-Ma-Maybe...
W-What? You will protect me? But!!!!
I'm a boy, and I don't want everyone see a girl protecting me!
It's embarrasing!!

=============EDIT!!!============

I changed my mind!

Shiori... Yes!! Protect me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BESIDES! I'll never walk with this guy Nogarath!
He's probably can see ghosts all the time and what do about his visions??

Lol Well don't worry I will protect you! Also no need to be embarresed of being protected by a girl.

Back on topic, Nogarath if you have another one of these visions or what ever you would like to call them you should post it again. It was interesting to hear this one.

[Kim_Hyral]

Now this makes a chain..... I protect her from light, and asassins and she protects you from Ghosts and bad auras, but i doubt she will accept... However....

......................................................What? ¬¬"

if you have another one of these visions or what ever you would like to call them you should post it again. It was interesting to hear this one.

Provided there's no ghosts... yes!

...dammit!

[Kaori]

I think you're just being narrow minded, and as for you two, he's under the influence and should just be ignored, I dont mind if its medical, but using it for the euphoria is just wrong, and quit making it like it sounds good because its not, if you keep this up someone here might do it as well, dont you EVER think about what you post here, if you cant even accept the fact that your habit is wrong then you are still no different than the regular junkie.

[Kim_Hyral]

Yeah, you're right.
It's a really serious matter. Sorry to take it to another point.
My afraid of ghosts is a personal matter that I have. So just forget it about ok?

[TheSorrow]

I think you're just being narrow minded, and as for you two, he's under the influence and should just be ignored, I dont mind if its medical, but using it for the euphoria is just wrong, and quit making it like it sounds good because its not, if you keep this up someone here might do it as well, dont you EVER think about what you post here, if you cant even accept the fact that your habit is wrong then you are still no different than the regular junkie.

Don't you think you're the one being narrow-minded?

I recommend you to learn and understand more about things you haven't experienced yourself, before making a true judgment about them. And if you're not interested in learning and understanding any of it, and you'll just view this story as "something bad from a junkie under the influence", then it's best if you simply leave this discussion without attacking any of the members. Again, this wasn't even a conversation about "who takes what" or "bad habits", just about a member sharing a certain story, "influenced" or not (though it would've been...curious if you had this experience without any psychedelics in your system at all), and sparking a conversation, as silly as it turned...and in fact, Nogarath actually replied to your first post with things you should've listened, which you seemingly ignored. As you should already know, i don't want to deal with problems in topics that shouldn't have been problematic at all. And what you're doing isn't exactly helping.

[Shiori]

I think you're just being narrow minded, and as for you two, he's under the influence and should just be ignored, I dont mind if its medical, but using it for the euphoria is just wrong, and quit making it like it sounds good because its not, if you keep this up someone here might do it as well, dont you EVER think about what you post here, if you cant even accept the fact that your habit is wrong then you are still no different than the regular junkie.

Well there are legal halussagents that people can take just like alcohol giving the right age. And some people enjoy things like that, and alcohol and so on. And no one said that he did on a 24, 7 bases. So do not accuse things that you do not know fully about. I personally do not see anything wrong in posting what happends durring a trip or vision or what ever you wold like to call it. It is just sharing an experience that occured in your life such as it wouldn't be wrong for me or you or anyone else to post about going to the beach, a party, a strange narotic dream we had, and so on. I wont say anything more on this so not to cause issues for The Sorrow.

[Nogarath]

I think you're just being narrow minded, and as for you two, he's under the influence and should just be ignored, I dont mind if its medical, but using it for the euphoria is just wrong, and quit making it like it sounds good because its not, if you keep this up someone here might do it as well, dont you EVER think about what you post here, if you cant even accept the fact that your habit is wrong then you are still no different than the regular junkie.

Don't you think you're the one being narrow-minded?

I recommend you to learn and understand more about things you haven't experienced yourself, before making a true judgment about them. And if you're not interested in learning and understanding any of it, and you'll just view this story as "something bad from a junkie under the influence", then it's best if you simply leave this discussion without attacking any of the members. Again, this wasn't even a conversation about "who takes what" or "bad habits", just about a member sharing a certain story, "influenced" or not (though it would've been...curious if you had this experience without any psychedelics in your system at all), and sparking a conversation, as silly as it turned...and in fact, Nogarath actually replied to your first post with things you should've listened, which you seemingly ignored. As you should already know, i don't want to deal with problems in topics that shouldn't have been problematic at all. And what you're doing isn't exactly helping.

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Back on topic, Nogarath if you have another one of these visions or what ever you would like to call them you should post it again. It was interesting to hear this one.

well when i started going back to school, I stopped doing it really. i limit myself to maybe twice a year (but each time i do enough to go crazy). my next insane trip will be on april 20th (420). and ill be hallucinating hard so the next day, be sure to check the board for my next post

[Kaori]

I think you're just being narrow minded, and as for you two, he's under the influence and should just be ignored, I dont mind if its medical, but using it for the euphoria is just wrong, and quit making it like it sounds good because its not, if you keep this up someone here might do it as well, dont you EVER think about what you post here, if you cant even accept the fact that your habit is wrong then you are still no different than the regular junkie.

Don't you think you're the one being narrow-minded?

I recommend you to learn and understand more about things you haven't experienced yourself, before making a true judgment about them. And if you're not interested in learning and understanding any of it, and you'll just view this story as "something bad from a junkie under the influence", then it's best if you simply leave this discussion without attacking any of the members. Again, this wasn't even a conversation about "who takes what" or "bad habits", just about a member sharing a certain story, "influenced" or not (though it would've been...curious if you had this experience without any psychedelics in your system at all), and sparking a conversation, as silly as it turned...and in fact, Nogarath actually replied to your first post with things you should've listened, which you seemingly ignored. As you should already know, i don't want to deal with problems in topics that shouldn't have been problematic at all. And what you're doing isn't exactly helping.

Sure go ahead listen to his ramblings then, but if I'm being narrow minded I can accept that, at least I dont like ruining my life with false happiness and abusing hallucinogens.

[Erranty]

As long as none of your lives get changed the way mine did you should all be fine.

Got hit by a truck, losing most of my memory and developing some stupid thing where I forget random words while I'm talking and it stops me dead in my sentences. Got it mostly under control though. Its still awkward talking to people that used to know me, and they always give me this eager look before I tell them what happened and why I don't know who they are.

But yeah, after that I got married, we had a son, then she passed away a few months later. Before I met her she tried committing suicide with asprin. It tore her organs up but she was already better when I met her. But the stress of the pregnancy was too much.

[AZURE-KITE]

As long as none of your lives get changed the way mine did you should all be fine.

Got hit by a truck, losing most of my memory and developing some stupid thing where I forget random words while I'm talking and it stops me dead in my sentences. Got it mostly under control though. Its still awkward talking to people that used to know me, and they always give me this eager look before I tell them what happened and why I don't know who they are.

But yeah, after that I got married, we had a son, then she passed away a few months later. Before I met her she tried committing suicide with asprin. It tore her organs up but she was already better when I met her. But the stress of the pregnancy was too much.

Man... You've had a tough life.... I'm sorry for your loss

[Kim_Hyral]

Yeah me too... I'm sorry.
Anyway,
If Nogarath wanna share more little devil stories again, I'll like to hear that! and Shiori too! =)
Although your stories are true after all, so... well... you can count on me! ;D